Letting go...

This is a random tangent but you know how it is when you want something so bad and it seems everyone you are around has it.
Well this is the way I have been feeling ever since I have had my miscarriage. It seemed everyone was pregnant with no problems. One of my sisters in law is pregnant with a sweet boy but at first every time I saw her I just wanted to cry. Almost all of my friends are pregnant who were trying and some who weren't trying.

But you know the crazy thing is that I was just seeing everything I couldn't have. Ater my miscarriage one of my friends had one the next week and it was nice that she could talk to me about it. A couple of my friends have been trying much longer than we had and still haven't or can't get pregnant. You know just when I was feeling pity on myself there are MUCH worse circumstances out there.

One of my friends who is having difficulty is so much more positive than I am. I mean I'm positive on the outside but not as much on the inside.

God has really been with me and shown through me this past week. Something that I never knew I would be able to do. Well I didn't it was all God.

I am finally letting go as much as possible of the jealously and self pity over this miscarriage and pregnancy of my friends. I really am super happy for them and I don't want them to think for a second I'm not.

I have finally got to the point that I KNOW GOD WILL BRING ME THROUGH IT. During his time I will have a healthy baby some day. I absolutely can't wait for that day.

So my prayer this week is for those who are having trouble getting pregnant or can't at all just give them patience and a positive outlook and never turn away from God because during these times is when you will need him the most. I would like you to say a prayer for me and those who need it :)

Love, R